hey, how are you all doing?

so here is my update, first of all, we lost our internet at home, which is why i havent been very active lately, my dad let me borrow his ipod and i could check some messages, but i couldnt reply to journals, or make my own or anything.

now we have moved to the building next to my dads, so i can try to get online more, once im done unpacking and dealing with things. im still having a hard time dealing with grandmas death, but saar came on here and saw my journal, and actually contacted me to talk, which made me feel better, as i miss him a lot.

this last two months have been horribly hard and honestly im surprised we made it out alive, but im glad we did, and it kind of made everyone appreciate each other more. thank you all for your support, and i have a few new pictures to submit as soon as i can find where i packed my flash drives.

also, i have come online to see over a hundred messages in my inbox, so please give me some time to reply to them all, thanks.


another thing, anyone know how to remove the mood from the journal? i dont want it anymore.




*update* rooms all set up, i finally have my posters up, its been a long time since ive seen them. maybe ill take pictures of the room if anyones interested.
monica is printing me sexy pictures of sam and dean to put in the empty space above my bed, so i cant wait for that (sexy, not naked).

my sister nicole is moving out at the end of the month, im kind of upset about it, but nothing i can do. at least shes only moving downstairs.

we now have internet at home, along with home phone and cable tv, the cable is only temporary because the building had an offer of three months free on internet, home phone, and cable.
im buying monicas old computer for $5 (and its a good one too) just need to find a monitor to use it with, if anyone has any ideas on how i could get one, that would be awesome, keep in mind i have no money.

nny works at blockbuster just a 5 minute walk from here, so hes going to be fixing up some of my dvds and games for free. and i get to see him more, which is amazing.

thank you all again.

yesterday, at about 7pm, my grandmother (dads side) who has been battling lung cancer for 3 and a half years passed away...
earlier yesterday, my dad called me and told me she was back in the hospital and that auntie ruth was asked to stay with her, but we thought she would have more time, or maybe that another miracle would happen and she would walk out of there.
when she was first diagnosed, they didnt think she would make it more then one month and that she would not be able to leave the hospital, but she did, and was doing amazingly well for three and a half long years.

yesterday marked exactly a month until daddy flew down there for udis wedding, and his wedding is on october 13th, grandma really wanted to be there.

ruth stayed with her all night, and fell asleep at about 5am (israel time), later, the nurse woke her up and told her grandma wasnt breathing. daddy picked nicole up from work, and sat with us downstairs for awhile, and i spoke to ruth on the phone, ive never heard her cry. i heard grandpas doing really well, but when i spoke to him about it while i was there, i knew he would be okay, hes strong.

i also spoke to simon (dads cousin) and he always knows how to help people out, monicas on her way over right now and is buying me dinner, and sabrina told me to call her if i need anything at all. its nice to know such awesome people.

daddys stopping by again today, and im going to try and cheer him up, and then tomorrow hes flying to israel for a few days to sit shiva with ruth and grandpa.

im really lucky i went to see her when i did, she started getting worse a month after that, and i dont think she would have wanted me there, especially after the cancer spread to her brain...

in the past year and a bit, i lost both my grandmothers, my cat, a few other family members, and some friends... is it ever going to end?


thanks for reading.

im moving out of my current apartment, a whole bunch of stupid things happened and because of that, we only have one day to pack, then find a place.

because of all of this i dont know when i can get online again, so bear with me as we work things out.

thank you.



it picks today to be so hot outside -_-...




*slight update* we got more time, though it doesnt seem to be getting any easier, our building manager is dicking us around and wont sign the form for our new building so we can move out...
but ill be on for a few more days at least, but if i randomly disappear again, you know why.

on the 31st of july i went to the rancid and rise against concert, which i have been waiting for since i bought my ticket in january.

i went with alora, monica, nny, and kathy, and it was a lot of fun.

rancid played VERY well, they almost sounded exactly like they do in studio.

rise against still has some work to do, they were good, but there were a few problems.
they couldnt get the volume of their instruments right, so for a lot of it, you couldnt hear the guitar over the drums, or the base over the vocals, and so on.
the lead singer doesnt seem used to not hearing himself sing, because he wasnt getting his pitch and volume right, and he didnt sound like he does in studio.
none the less, they put on a good show, and gave it their all, and i would love to see them improve.

when rise against played hero of war, people were holding up lighters, so we did to, and i must say, seeing it in videos doesnt match up to seeing it in person and being part of it. some people held up their iphones with the lighter application open.

i was deaf for a few days and my voice crackled, and it was worth it! i didnt get home until 4:30am, and had to shower before going to bed, because i went out with my dad, joy, and her daughters for dinner the next day.


thanks for reading.

today two important people to the fame world have passed away.

firstly, farah fawcett, a poster girl and charlies angel, and im sure more things i dont know about, because im afraid to say i didnt know anything about her except for her name.
she lost the battle to cancer and it is a shame.

and michael jackson, pop icon. completely unexpected, especially since he was dying, but thats not even what killed him. he died of an unexpected cardiac arrest. i cant say i am a fan of him, his work, or the scandals around him, or even the fact he was born black and died white, but NO ONE deserves to die young.
on another scary note, he was born in the same year, and same month as my dad.

i wish long life to their families, and well to them in death.